Letter to L

As I was getting dressed to go to the post office my mom, nosy as she is, asked me what I was doing and where I was going. And I told her I was gonna send you a Christmas card. She told me its nice how we remained friends for so long now, seeing how random we met. And I think she is right, and Im happy and lucky to call you my friend.

Developing A Better Version Of Myself

I got from 85 to 70 kilos now.I've been trying to lose some more weight for a long time.But I haven't been able to
figure out why I just can't do it.I don't have the consistency and the power to keep away from junk food.
As I take a cold hard look at myself in the mirror, I realize that losing weight isn't the only thing I failed at.
I failed to complete my college studies, in Computer Science.I lie, I get angry fast, I give up to easily.

I still have some classes to pass because I didn't study for some exams,I just don't know if programming is the thing for me
but my parents would kill me if I told them this.
I lie,because people lie to me,and sometimes I worry about what people would think if I'd tell them the truth.
I get angry fast,sometimes at people that don't deserve it.
I give up to easily, and I don't know why.

I think most of it is because of the environment I live in.The giving up,lying, and anger is the family way.
But I also know that blaming them,even if it's true, is no way of fixing me.I gotta fix myself and I've taken some steps:
I begun reading a C++ programming book in the summer,still have around 100 pages to read.I'm gonna start doing P90X again,as much as I can,
and I started keeping track of what I eat and how I exercise.